My sister is doing this MEME thing and we are suppose to answer her questions and then put them on our blog and send the questions to people and then they are suppose to answer them and then so on so forth. I did not know I had to put it on my blog so I answered it before I knew this. I know too many people on here and this is embarrassing but here it is.

5 things you do not know about me:

1. Today I was at work and my ass was itching bad I could not figure out why so I actually went to the bathroom to check. When I did this I found a fabric softener stuck to my butt. It doesn't itch anymore but it is much softer.
2.I have a birth mark on my right hip
3. I have worked at many many jobs one year I had W2s for 26 places
4.I always snart after sex that is so embarrassing great idea Meka gaw
5.I sometimes wear two bras when my back hurts. It makes them more supported and therefore makes my back feel better LOL I'm so done with this now LOL

The five people I am sending this to hmmmmm.

Tonia, DesertBLU, Raine, Jeanette and Jenna

Hello guys I know I know where the hell have you been I am really sorry. I have been pretty busy lately that is for sure today was my only boring do nothing day in quite awhile. It was so boring that I am rather stuck on what to post about. My sis and Mav finally are moved in. They seem to be real happy and I am sure she will posting about it soon. She went a few days without Internet and I am sure they will be on today so I am expecting a post soon. If you guys want to check it out you can here. Other than that I really don't know what to say today I will try to have a more interesting day tomorrow. Talk to you all then.

Today is my oldest sons birthday Happy Birthday baby. I cannot believe that he is 10 years old...I am feeling old myself now. It seems like yesterday I was pushing him around in a stroller, now he is getting so big. I know I at times say I wish he would grow up but now I look at it and say wow I wish he would stay young. Time does fly. 10 years ago I was so uncertain of our future would hold... sad part is I am still wondering that. I was so scared to become a parent for the first time. Could I do this or would I be screwing this innocent child's life. I still wonder that as well. As a mom I have learn the true meaning to so many words, fear, happiness, frustration and LOVE. I love my children unconditionally. They may get on my nerves at times and make me want to just scream but I love them that will never ever stop. I have been in love before but not like this. When you are in love, things can go wrong and sometimes you do not want to see or speak with that person ever again...so you don't and you heal after time. With your children it is so different. You cannot stop loving your kids no matter what they do.

I truly hope I am making the right decisions for him in his life, I hope I am guiding him to become a wonderful part of the world, a part that others feel his existence. I hope I am raising him to make a difference and to get everything he wants the right way. I hope I am not letting my children down. I am running out of young years to get my message through to him and this scares me. They say that when children are 18 they are suppose to be ready to face the world on their own. That gives me 8 years boy do I have a lot to do in 8 years. This is something for my children I hope you enjoy:

I sit alone and smile as I think of you
Of who you will be and the great things you will do
Will you be a doctor or ,scientist or someone grand
And when you are will you still hold my hand
You came into my life and brought a brilliant light
And I thank god for you each and every night
I kiss your chubby cheeks and rub your soft hair
And I pray whenever you need me I will always be there
To do the little things like wipe your tears
Or hold you in my arms to comfort your fears
I pray I will always be a good mother to you
And that my actions are always true
I pray one day you will forgive me my mistakes
And that I will always do whatever it takes
To put you first and give you a good life
Because having you has saved my life
I could never have picked a better son
For god has given me the perfect one....

Well this weekend has been pretty busy...well not at home for the weekend busy. We helped my sis and bro pack up there house...well the packing was basically done now came the moving stuff. It started out all peachy and then I did a dumby. I was attempting to carry a dresser drawer out of the house. They are kind of long and different shaped objects and well I successfully got the door open and got out of the house. I was attempting to close the door behind me and step off the stairs at the same time. I felt it would be easier to step off straight ahead instead of turning and going down the steps. Well we got snow and umm I lost my footing actually my ankle decided it didn't like what I was doing and decided to give out. I went down hard on my knee I have a scrape now on my knee and I kind of look like a 4 year old in the summer. My ankle hurt real bad and I felt the burn so I laid there for a moment and then my sis came out to find me in the snow. That day moving was kind of over for me. Last night I had the wonderful skin sticking to my sheets thing. It is an open wound and stuck to everything then I got out of bed and I felt like my ankle was being held in a vice grips. I knew that babying it would make it worse so I tied my shoe a little tighten and we were off for more fun. I was in a rather poo poo mood this morning because I could see what was coming actually I could feel it. My children were SUPPOSE to be with their dad this weekend so I could help my sis and when I talked to my oldest I told him that. He asked if he could come home and I said NO! Well once again he took it upon himself to make his own plans you know he is 9 years old.....whatever. He called my mom and instead of checking with me she went and picked them up. I knew this was bad. You see it is all good to pick them up but when they misbehave then I am to go get them. Just wonderful! At least when there at their dads I do not have to worry about them misbehaving at my moms its a given. She said to me are you coming home soon...ummm no then she said well I will keep them with me. I then said that we would be working tomorrow as well that is ALL that was said. After that my son called a few times asking me to come home because he was bored...mind you it is now 11:30 at night and everyone in my moms house was sleeping. No I was not going to leave and have my mom wake up wondering where he went.

I went to bed on Saturday right around 1am and I had set my clock for 9am to get up and get over there to get more done. When I left my mom and the kids were gone. I figured since I had told her it was safe to leave. SO I did. Not in the house 5 minutes and the phone is ringing I am now getting yelled at by my mom. I knew it was coming I just knew. It was my fault that I had left before they returned. WONDERFUL!!!!! I said I would just come home and take my kids but I was told to just stay there and I was hung up on. Now I am mad....why is this my fault? I had a place for the kids to be so I would not have to worry about exactly this. I stayed and helped and when I came home my kids were on the porch waiting for me outside. Now I am hot. I guess my kids got in a disagreement with the kids and they were told to leave. I don't get this at all. Why argue with kids you are the adult tell them how it is going to be. I am not bad mouthing my mom but I am upset about this. When I got in the house I had a LOOOOOONG talk with both of my kids and they are on punishment. My mother is basically not speaking to me and I am s till wondering what the hell I did. I guess sit is not for me to understand. I plan on giving her her space and maybe just maybe it will be understood that I did my part and it was other peoples decisions to change that. In the meantime I now have no idea who is going to watch the kids for me next Saturday when I am out of town doing a party....WONDERFUL just WONDERFUL! So to say the least I am not in the greatest of moods. I am ready to just go to bed. SO I think I will .

Hello all well I just got home from my children's Christmas program.... I am so proud. I heard my oldest son over everyone and he was singing in tune. He must get that from his mom. My youngest son had to rap a line and do a dance by himself in front of everyone and he did it it was HILARIOUS! I don't how many people stopped me in the hall and said boy he can really shake it. LOL He must get that from his mama as well. I am sad to say my cameras batteries were dead and I feel horrible about that. There dad took some pictures and I believe he got video of my youngest shaking it if he did I will try to get it and post it. Definitely a sight to see.

Also I wanted to tell you all that I am happy that one of my consultants who was having some Passion difficulties is seeing better days. She has a party scheduled and I am so happy. I was really afraid I would loose her but as long as you want to succeed you will in this business. I hope she gets a lot of leads from this party and even more orders so she has more money to spend on her baby that is on the way. I am sure she will do great because she did great before. I have a few more consultants to work with but I know she has a lot of potential to become one of my pearls in this business. Some people have it while others just do not...she definitely has it. Sometimes it can be so easier to become frustrated in this business. You go through rough times and even times where you just want to quit I have been there and I have done that and I know now I am a lifer. I am really slow right now but I know that just means I need to get my name back in peoples heads. With the holidays it may be a little slow but January I MUST get back busy. My team needs to be busy so we can rise up again where we once were. I am confident that will happen.

As for other stuff I have been sick for quite awhile and I still look and sound like the walking dead.....hmmmm what would a dead sound like? HMMMM never mind. I have been off of work now for a day in attempts to stop being dizzy stop passing out but I am not sure I that wont still happen. I cut my grandmas hair today and I had to sit down before I fell down. HMMM no matter what I have to go to work tomorrow so hopefully my sleep tonight will be a good cure. I am going to go get started with that. Talk to you all soon.

Today has been one of those days I woke up this morning and I am so sick I can hardly stand it. I guess I should first update you guys that I now have heat thank goodness it only took 3 days and I am blaming all of our illness on that. Well maybe not all of it but it sure did not help. I did not have time to be ill this morning because I had to get to work. I was so dam tired I could not stand it because I had a party last night as well. I know you guys are wondering how the party was well it was a bachelorette party and anyone in the business knows that 9 times out 10 you are there for entertainment. I pulled up to the house with high hopes that this would not be one of those parties. Let me back up a little. This house if you want to call it that was a castle. No kidding a castle it had 6 bathrooms God only knows how many bedrooms and it was decorated in Tiger jungle decorations. Any one that knows me knows that is me all the way. I couldn't help but to think the party would be great by the looks of the house. I guess that don't judge a book by its cover would apply here as well. People with big houses have big bills and this was not all of their houses just hers. I was amazed that this house belonged to a single mom. Boy I am rather jealous I have to admit. I did however find out that she was left a large inheritance which makes sense. Now I do know that are some people single moms that bust there butts and have nice things but it is hard I know because I live it every day. No matter how much I may want something no matter how hard you work there is only so much you can do when you are single mom. Yes there are 24 hours in a day but some of those have to be with your kids and some there are just not daycare during so it is hard. While I am typing this I can just hear someone saying oh cry me a river. I am not looking for pity I am just saying that it is hard when there are more then yourself and your mate that depend on you.....it is hard to get ahead. If anyone knows a way please tell me because I try my hardest and i am still looking at peoples backs.

So I went to work today even though I feel that a restaurant is not a place for someone who is sick. I went though because I do not call in. AT 1PM an hour before my shift was over I was told to go home and get some sleep I am on the schedule the rest of the week. SO I did and now I feel like hell I want to just go to bed but my kids are on some sugar high or something or maybe I am just feeling that irritable. They are already on a 7:30PM bedtime from their bad behavior. I am not sure how much more I can take soon it will be 6:30Pm or better yet now. So I think I am going to baby myself for a little while I have to get better I have to work all week because I told them I needed the weekend off to help my sis and bro who are moving a week from today. It seems weird that a week from today there will be no more of that house that has been in the family for like 30 years. This is weird but I know it is the best for everyone involved. I know they will be happier and I will be able to rest easier knowing they are safer. Okay guys sofa city here I come I hope you all are having a great weekend.

 

Hello again guys. Well it has been a few days since I posted here so here I go. I am actually posting for more than that reason. You see it is real cold here in Milwaukee and well um yesterday our furnace took a crap. It is cold as shit in here. We tried calling our landlord and finally said screw it after no return phone call and called the man that is selling my sisters house. He owns this place as well. Well he answered right away which was great however we had wasted so much time calling the other one that now they are not sure they will be able to get here until tomorrow. Just the thought of another cold ass night drives me insane. Trying to keep my kids warm and myself is a headache in its own. Especially because we are suppose to have a mega storm tonight they are saying like 10-12 inches. I can hardly wait....NOT!!!!! SO I am trying to stay busy as I really am cold and grumpy. I am about to grab a blankey and wrap up on the couch and that may be where I am headed WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO what has been up with you guys. I know I don't post as often but you guys could still talk to me LOL...really though! Alright I am real cold I will talk to you all later blankey here I come. 

Hi guys! I know it has been awhile since I posted but yep you guessed it I have been super busy. The Thanksgiving holiday was great for me, even though I have to work that morning.I hope it was for you as well. I had my party on Sunday also and I had to get everything prepared for that as well. I was kind of upset by the number of people who said they were coming and did not show up but I am thankful for the ones who did. We had fun! It was pretty fun my grandma was helping me get everything ready and ended up staying. Talking about sex toys in front of her felt a little weird but hey she had fun and said just because she is older does not mean she did not at one time enjoy sex. I guess that is true, I mean she was doing it before I was born but I was happy to hear I even taught her a few new things. LOL

Today I had off of work so I basically took it a little easy. OK OK I laid around the house all day. It is not too often I am not running around working so I do not feel too bad. I need to clean the house because my sis and I made the penis cakes for the party and well all the other food and I made quite a mess. I will do that when I am done here though.

Other than that I did go do something that my sis Meka may not understand or like. I told her awhile ago that I wanted to find someone that I think about often. I wanted to see how he was doing and that all is good with him. I searched high and low for quite awhile and I actually found him. I did send a message to him and we will see if I get a response. I am not looking for anything I just want to see how he is. My sis is probably worried because she knows this person will always have a place in my heart. That has never stopped and never will. You guys no how it is everyone has a love in their life that is beyond just okay were done now I must forget about you. There is no way this will happen with him... I will always love him near or far no matter what! I felt a little nervous sending him a message I mean it has been years since I talked to him who knows what path he has taken in life maybe he is married who knows. I just hope I don't get some woman mad by the fact that I am just wanting to say hi. I feel I have to because these few years that I have not heard anything from him I feel like a big part is missing from my life. I hope is alright and I hope I hear from him soon. So many things have changed since I last talked with him...when I think back wow have things changed in my life so I can just imagine how things must have changed for him. So Meka don't be mad at me I feel I need to know he is alright. You know my heart and you know how I feel about him.

Okay enough of that. Tomorrow it is back to work. I am sure a lot of you must be tired for going back after a long weekend. Mine was not that long as I worked all weekend, holiday or not I was on the schedule....grrrr! I also have a few things to do with my business tonight so when I finally get to lay down I will be happy. I will talk with you guys real soon because it is time to get to work. Oh I forgot to add my kids both made the honor roll again. I am so proud of them. They are getting so big. My oldest son is going to be 10 in a few weeks boy do I feel old. Momma loves you guys and good job on your school work!

 

Hello everyone I just wanted to quickly post to you all that I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving. It was also brought to my attention that I missed my blog anniversary. WOW has it been a year that is crazy! I wish I had more time to post to you guys but right now I don't. I have been running like mad. I thought maybe just maybe I would have time tomorrow to relax and maybe get rid of this migraine I have now had for 5 days straight but nope....I'm working....yup working on Thanksgiving! I know it sucks but at least I will be able to eat as soon as I get off. Meka save me some....she will probably eat all the sweet potatoes before i get there. WAH!!!!! So I hope all of you have a great one and be nice to your family. It may be a little hairy at times but be nice its the holidays you have all year to be mean...LOL just kidding! Take care guys gotta run!!!!

Things You Can Only Say on Thanksgiving!

1. Talk about a huge breast!
2. Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist.
3. It's Cool Whip time!
4. If I don't undo my pants, I'll burst!
5. Whew, that's one terrific spread!
6. I'm in the mood for a little dark meat.
7. Are you ready for seconds yet?
8. It's a little dry, do you still want to eat it?
9. Just wait your turn, you'll get some!
10. Don't play with your meat.
11. Just spread the legs open and stuff it in.
12. Do you think you'll be able to handle all these people at
once?
13. I didn't expect everyone to come at once!
14. You still have a little bit on your chin.
15. How long will it take after you stick it in?

Hello again all! Boy oh boy it has been busy around here. I am trying to get ready for my very own Passion party the Sunday after Thanksgiving. I know it will be a lot of fun and I cannot wait. I am making a penis cake LOL and a few other things just to remind the guests what kind of party this. It is funny how a lot of people are a little scared or embarrassed to come to the party. I guess I can understand I have been to a few myself that were kind of....well just not so good. I am totally secure in knowing I will not offend people or make them wish they did not attend. It just is not that kind of party unless a penis cake offends you. If that is the case then I must say that you need the party more than anyone. It does surprise me that some people are just so ummmmm boring when it comes to their sex lives. Now I am not saying that everyone needs to grab whips and chains and get busy. No I am not saying that at all but there is nothing wrong with experimenting a bit as long as it is between two people that love each other. It is so important to keep that flame burning, keep it interesting otherwise it is just routine. Some people like routine and that is fine also but I hate when people try to judge others that like to add a little spice in their life. Take for instance my supervisors husband. He says he is going to picket my party saying it is immoral. Okay well first he was not given an invite so he does not have a clue where it is. Second his wife wants to go SOOOOOO bad. What does that tell you? It tells me that she is looking for something more. I see that so often couples do not try to talk about or try new things because they are afraid what the other might think. Inside they are dying to try new things. I have to say that if you have a good relationship you SHOULD be able to talk to the other about ANYTHING! Don't fear what they might think, don't just wait for them to bring it up because they might be doing the same thing you are. WAITING!!!! Do I talk about it....of course I do and I have a great sex life... not that you care but I do. Do I practice what I preach when I am doing parties...darn tooting and that is why I have a great sex life. Now if I could just work on the times when we are not having sex We would be great! LOL Anyways if by chance you are one that is dying to experiment with your lover and you do not know how to approach them or drop a hint email me I would be happy to help you out. You could also go to my web page go shopping and when you receive it say, "look what Cindy the Passion lady sent me try...what to try?" Blame it on me I guarantee you will be happy you did. Go let your imagination be free go look at www.passionbycindy.com 

So it appears my sis is finally going to be free from the neighborhood she has been in for awhile. It breaks my heart that the place where I was raised now makes me feel so unsafe when I am there. I know they will be so happy to be out. It also appears she may get to move in when she wants. This bums me a little. I was rather looking forward to having them in the neighborhood for awhile. I think some girl time with my sis,me and my mom would be great right about now. I think we all could use that. However I do know that it would be stressful for them. They have been on there own for quite awhile and the shock alone of staying with relatives may be a little stressful. Who Knows? Any hoot I am happy they have found a place and I wish them the best. I know my sis and my mom have asked me how I feel about the house that I grew up in leaving the family. The truth is ALOT of bad things happened to me in that house ALOT. Yes it will be weird to drive past and not be able to stop but you know what I will get over it. I much prefer being able to rest better knowing my sis, my bro, my kitty nephews, and my doggy niece and nephew are safe. I think the reason they may be asking is  because they know how badly I wish I was in their shoes. I would love a house....LOVE one but reality tells me I need to take my time and get my credit straight. That right there feels like a never ending battle so in reality I may be a renter for life....THAT BITES! I really cant say that though because I have goals to accomplish and when I do things WILL change. I really really need to get to the next level in my business. That has been my goal for a couple months now and it is so close I can taste it I have been tasting it for several months and I am so ready to take a bite. Once that happens I know my life and finances will take a drastic change for the better. I cant wait! I am also considering going to school to get my real estate license. Several people have told me how they think I would  be great at that. I have heard that I can sell ice to an Eskimo this is weird to me. I am not pushy I hate pushy sales people so how am I so good? HMMM maybe that is why I will not push you and I tell you the truth. I will not try to sell the most expensive thing to you but instead the thing that suites you the best. I only wish all salespeople would do the same. Maybe then when you walk in a store we will not try to avoid you.

Oh well I guess I have to get some work done. I go back to work tomorrow boy your day goes by fast when you are off. Maybe that is because the kids were off too. I will talk to you all soon take care. Oh and go check out my page I have some GREAT stockings stuffers there. Put that spice in your life a good time to start is the holidays and the New Year. Also if anyone is reading and would like to attend my party on the 26th email me and I will be sure to send you an invite. I would love to see you all there. Take care! 

Ta Da!  Happy Thursday!

I know I know I hear you guys where have you been why are you not updating I am sorry really I am. So here we go! Today was well lets just say a day from hell. Actually I must say this whole week so far has been a little testie LOL I know that is spelled wrong but in my line of work it is the way it is spelled LOL. Good thing I know about them because it has been testie let me tell you. I guess you can say it started last Friday. We all know that I have been working "part time" Well sometimes I wonder if it is more of a  headache then it is worth. I told them when I applied and I have already told you guys this but I did say that I would not be available every weekend because I have my business to tend to. Well they had me off the schedule last weekend and on Thursday they changed it to me working all weekend. I told them that was not going to happen. I know that sounds rather ballsy but remember they knew this before they hired me. I had two parties this weekend and I DO NOT cancel parties. Parties are my bread and butter so I will not turn them down. Well they didn't like that at all and my supervisor decided to throw BIG attitude at me. I think because she knew there was no bullying me into it. That is her managing style the kind that will hang something over your head and threaten you HMMM does not work this way. SO I just ignored the crap she even made me put a damn hairnet on! No one else just me to spite me, I put it on knowing I looked completely like an asshole but did it just to act like I was still not giving in. I left that day and although I felt a little bad I questioned why I did. I decided I would call her and say that I could work just not a whole shift. Then I decided no I will just tell her that tomorrow when I was there I had had enough and I did not want to hear her voice anymore that day. The next morning I got up for work walked to my garage opened it and yup FLAT TIRES again. I knew I would be believed when I called but I did not have a choice at that moment. I would either be missing that day or real late! I called and yup got attitude but there was nothing more I could do unless she came to pick me up..... and she does not have a car....DARN!!!!!! I called later that Day and told her I would work half a shift and she told me she found someone that would come in for me. Okay good! SO this weekend I did the parties. They were okay I guess but sales were a little low....still more than I would have made there so I am pleased.

Tuesday I went in and I sat down to eat before I started. The assistant to which I really do like said, "oh Cindy I am so glad you are here I thought maybe you quit." She then said that the regional said that as soon s I get there she was to page her because she wanted to talk to me before I punched in. I thought for sure I was fired. I was not scared, I was shocked. So she paged her and this is how it went. Cindy...yes...whats going on?......nothing much how about with you?......no Cindy what is up with your hours, how can we make you happy?.... I am so used to sarcasm that at first I thought she was making a funny. I did not get defensive though I said well when I applied I did so because the ad said weekdays. During the interview I did tell you about my business and that I would be able to help you as much as I could but weekends basically would not work for me. I then told her that since the day I started I have been scheduled 3 weekends out of the month all 3 days. I said that is not working for me. I also told her that my schedule gets changed too much without notifying me. If I did not look at the schedule every day I would not have known. She says back to me: we want you to work for us full time....I said full time weekdays is fine but I cant weekends...then she says that full time includes weekends and I told her that will not work... I asked her to add me as an extra if that would make it easier for tehm....she thens says she wants me to transfer to her store because she could accommodate those hours and I would make a lot more tips, or she wants me to be the assistant manager of another store.... I turned this down once before and I still am. I cannot dedicate 60+ hours to Webb's. She told me she would do whatever she can to make me happy because she does not want me to leave and I left it at that. After hanging up with her the assistant wanted to know what was said and I told her...she was so mad at the thought that she is trying to get me at another store. She said I cannot leave and the regulars said if you go there we are too. That was hilarious!!!!! NOW let me tell you all I HATE waitressing but I guess I am good at it. I have been told I have a way with people so I guess that makes me feel good. Now with me hating waitressing the best part is tips. At Webb's you have to share tips with everyone working including the cooks and the manager which I think is dumb. Which brings me to today they had 6 people on the schedule which means tips get split 6 ways. Today is Thursday not Saturday not even Friday why the hell are there 6 people? The answer to my question was not a good one you ask me. We have a waitress that is um like 80 she is slow and cannot hear. I was told that when she is on they have to have 2 people to count as one for her. My response the only people that is hurting are the people that are here for tips. If you are only pulling a quarter of the weight and it takes two to make one then that is how tips should be split as well. Oh and the other girl was new and when I was new I could not be in the tip split until I was totally trained. SO now I was asked to train her but because I am not a manager she would be on tips as well. So now I am doing more work with even less pay....GREAT!!!!!!!

That was quite a vent there wow that was long! Sorry! You did ask for a post though LOL!!!!!

SO I have also decided that I am having my own Passion party this month. I am inviting everyone, all past hostesses any and every one. I have rented a hall and it will be a blast. I am giving gifts for anyone bring a guest I want a big turn out. If you are in the neighborhood email me and I will send you the details. I am doing this because I am rather slow this month and I hate being slow HATE IT!!!!!

Other than that I have been doing the same old stuff. I am trying to work with some of my consultants a little more because some are having some issues with getting parties. I am also working with some girls to get them signed up. They are wanting to but they are a little on the edge. I just need to show them how much fun you can have and the sky is limit at this. You get what you put in the rewards are great though. If any of you are interested please drop me a line I would love to talk with you. Also Christmas is right around the corner I have lots of "stocking stuffers" on my page LOL anyone who places an order by November 26 and mentions my blog will get a 10% discount on there order. Just type BLOG in the comments. Here I will make it easier for you just click the link.www.passionbycindy.com  Go shopping and have a great time any questions you know where I am click that contact me thing up there. SO I will talk to you all soon take care!

Once again it has been quite awhile since I posted to you all.. Some was due to being super busy while some was also out of my control. I had computer issues again this time rather major. My sis Meka came to my rescue again and I appreciate it fully. I know how busy she is with trying to sell the house, her job and life in general and I do fully appreciate it. I am lost without my computer....LOST. I have to remain in constant contact for my business and without it I am screwed so I am so happy my sis came through for me again.

Life ahs been pretty normal lately the same ol crap different day different month. BILLS BILLS BILLS! I am still riding on horrible tires, two of which are now filled with fix a flat and are still going flat. WHat chaps my hide is that the tread on my tires is great. They look new it is the seal that is bad. They appear to be coming off the rims which freaks me out. I know I must fix them but first I had to pay my bills like rent, phone, electric, car insurance and stuff. I am proud to say they are all paid up as of today. YEAH I did it once again now I can start all over. Does it ever stop?

Business is going steady and it has also been keeping me real busy between the one job and this one. SOme days I am lost on where I am going to find another hour but hey that is what it takes. I have not been in contact with my team that much anymore. I think some are falling uninterested or maybe they are not finding success. The truth is you have to be motivated and dedicated to survive in this business. You get through the rough times and the awards are awaiting you. I am searching for someone anyone with the dedication that I put into it. My sponsor says I have yet to find my gem and I will soon I cant wait to find her. Could it be you? It very well could be. We are going to be getting really busy soon do to the fact that Passion parties is releasing there guide to great sex book. It will be getting advertised everywhere and anywhere. I am preparing myself for this. I cant wait for this because I know that I make more in 3 hours than most make in a week and that makes my life that much easier when it comes to bills.

I am kind of stuck for words right now I am not too sure what to write about so if I am boring you guys to snot I am sorry. I guess I will bring this to a close so I can go get some work done I will talk to you all soon. Take care!

Hi guys well I have all the painting done are you proud? I am wooo I am so glad it is done. Lets see allow me to tell you how my friday the 13th went today. This is normally a day that I try real hard to stay in the house but today that was not an option. You see today I was suppose to be at work but I had to take the day off. My oldest son is going through some things and asked me if he could go talk to someone. I have been thinking that this has been needed for some time so I was happy to make the call. So that appointment was at 10:30 so at 9:45am I went to the garage opened it and guess what I saw? A car sitting on the rims again...grrrrrrrr! I attempted to take it out as I was going to try to get it to the gas station to get air in the tires. Not happening it was bumpy and made the worst noise I have heard in awhile well since the last time. So knowing that I did not have a whole lot of time to get my son and to get to this appointment I ran and I mean ran to Target in hopes they had fix a flat. They did thank God so I ran back and started applying the stuff yuck that stuff is a mess so now I am all full of fix a flat LOL. It did the job the though so now I am rolling on fix a flat....geez I need new tires. While I was putting it in I realized that the tires are cracked by the rims so I know this fix a flat will not last long.

I did make it to the appointment thank GOD because a late show or no show is an additional $50 added to the $318 for the hour. I am should have gone to school to be a counselor man. During the meeting my sons father and I had a few things to say that got under each others skin but that was expected we never really did agree. My son did not say much I think he was a little scared which I understand. I spent the majority of the hour crying because one of the firs things he did say is that we dont get along very well and he does not feel he can talk to me. That hurts but I know it is true. He holds a lot of resentment towards me due to my choice in boyfriends. I was listening and I did admit that I did not look deep before i leaped. He has NO patience whats so ever. I did tell him that I feel as if I have invested too much time in this to just walk away we should try to work things out and find a happy medium. Coming home tonight I now see this will be a difficult task. He has NO patience and its his way or no way. It is very frustrating and I am so stressed I am trying not to make rash decisions. I did know in the long run I have to make the right decision because these are my children they will be with me through thick and thin and well I have never had a man that could do the same. If he is not willing to work through some things and change some things then I am going to be forced to change them for him, starting with his address.

I did get a hold of the plumber today that makes me happy. My appointment is for Monday and I cannot wait. I want to have better water pressure so bad and it is coming soon. YEAH!!!!!! Other than that it was a pretty normal day. I am trying right now to possibly find a place for my children to go tomorrow. I have to work all weekend and my hun is not to keen on watching them. I hate this because then I am totally thinking about it all day long at work. SO I guess I should go make some calls. Then I am headed to bed because I have to be up real early grrrrrr! Talk to you all later and have a great weekend.

One more room to go YEAH!!!!!! Sorry maybe I should explain.Since I moved in here I have been a busy body there is not a wall in this place that did not need to be painted. SO I got started and today I finished my room now all I have left is the kids room. YEAH!!!!!!!! Then I have to start on the floors argh!!!!! You see I want to get this place the way I want it and soon because every day I have off which is few and far between now I am working on something. I want to be able to just chill just for once. My hun says just chill but the truth is I cannot get my chill on until everything is done. Call me goofy but I have to.

I had a pretty bad day at work yesterday boy oh boy I thought I would loose it on this guy. He in my face lied on me. I took a deep breathe because I know my temper and this was the first altercation at my new job. I know the supervisor was kind of concerned because it was apparent how angry I was, and in her words I had good cause. S he lies and I mean lies! Here is how it went the supervisors had to leave for a meeting. Now I have told you all in the past that I have to share tips with everyone and this has caused several issues do to people slacking with the knowledge the tips will not be affected. So the bosses went to a meeting and right after they walked out of the door this guy decided he was not going to be on the floor anymore. The place was a nut house. My mom was there and LOL the supervisors husband was there also. Do you know this idiot did not even realize he was there? Dumb Dumb number one. So I am running like a chicken without a head because there was not a seat open in the place and I was all alone. My mom kept saying breathe Cindy you look mad.... I WAS I WAS HOT!!!!!! I asked sir asshole fore some help and he laughed at me...WHAT? Then he came out and yelled at me for not doing the dishes. I almost lost it but kept my cool a little longer. The phone rings and who else but me could go get it? It was the supervisor and she said how are things Cindy? I said instead of getting into it allow me to tell you there is not a free spot in this place and people are waiting to be seated and oh yeah I am by my self. Now she called because the day before this asshole pulled the same shit. He avoided taking tables like they were the plague. She could not believe how things were handled with once again only me on the floor she was happy but felt real bad for me and wished she could give tips to me and only me. Anyways I am on the phone with her and I said you know what are you on the way coming back? She said yeah I asked her to please just walk in and catch him in his actions. She agreed that would be a great idea. My mom brought it to my attention that while I was on the phone this a hole came out and put some tips from the tables in his pocket. I am even more hot!!!! So she walks in and her husband goes to her and begins to fill her in on what has been going on. She looks at me and I am drenched in sweat. She has the assistant and another girl take the floor and calls us in the back. Me and asshole that is. He comes in the office and says I am so glad you are back Cindy has not been doing anything I asked her to do the dishes and she said that is not her job. I asked her if she needed help and she said no I am just shocked and appalled. That is what he said I looked at him in shock looked at the supervisor took a deep breathe and said this. Karma is a bitch and right now I am going to become one, how dare you lie about me in my face? I said you have some damn nerve. AT this point my supervisor stops him and says what if I were to tell you that 12 customers called me to me that you were the one not doing a thing. He said they would be lying...she said Okay look at table C that would be my husband who has been here for quite awhile and witnessed it all. Second that crap you said about Cindy with the dishes well that is a lie. Every day Cindy comes in and if the bus tubs are filled the first thing she does is empty and do the dishes, because she is well anal. We joke about it with her all the time. He starts cussing at her and just being himself and she kicked him out of the office. Back on the floor a customer comes in and he says would you like me to take your order or this bitch over here pointing to me. Bit my tongue and went to the table when they said we would per fer her. Then as I am writing up orders he would come and kick my feet and just was doing everything in his power to annoy me. I finally told him if you do not stop I am going to fuck you up. I am not one of these little girls that will take shit from you I will truely fuck you up and if you do not believe me keep testing me. I told my supervisor what I had said and I told her that I have been pushed to limits in this day that I have not felt in some time. She said that she totally understood and showed me the three page write up she was doing on him. She called him in and said if you do not leave her alone I will fire you on the spot. He said I will call your boss and she said I dare you, he said I will walk out and then I said what would be the difference you are not doing shit anyways. I was mad I know that was wrong. She said if you want to walk then walk I have moved you from 2nd shift to first because no one would work with you and now two days and look.

It was hell it kept going and I am so glad I had today off had I not I am not sure what the outcome would have been. More than likely not good. SO I worked on the house today and now I have some Passion parties stuff to work on. I have a couple orders to process. That reminds me go check out the new stuff at www.passionbycindy.com we have some new products and I would love to ship some to you as well. Talk to you all soon!

Hi Guys I happened to take a peek at my journal and I realized I have been neglecting it very badly. I am very sorry. It seems since I moved I have been super busy. Especially taking on another job....my goodness...chicken without a head rather describes me. I still have not completed all that I have set out to complete either. One from lack of time and other from lack of money...so feel secure in knowing my blog is not all that has been neglected. You would think starting a new job I would have extra money which is one of the main reasons I decided to do it, but it is the opposite for some reason I am in a pickle right now that I am trying to make relish out of. LOL that was a dumb analogy! I have not been giving a lot of time to party planning or trying to get more and for that I am suffering. My next party is not until the 20th and that sucks for me. I am so used to doing them every weekend that I am starting to feel a little withdrawal. With all that is going on now I cannot imagine having them every weekend but now I must take a step back and remember my priorities.When applying and interviewing for this job I made it very clear that I would not allow a part time job to interfere with my business that is where my heart is and that is who I am a passion lady. The supervisor totally respected my honesty and said she would insure that this job would not interfere. Well I applied for part time and when I did my signing it said full time. I questioned her about this and this is her words, "It is not very often that we get applicants in here with the personality or people skills such as yours. People are drawn to you and we have noticed a lot of new regulars since you got on our team. We need this being a new location. She continued by saying that the girls enjoy working with you because you are a no drama fun person to work with and the tips are better. By this time i believe I had the "whatever" face on because I am not too use to compliments. She said that she would really like to have me on the schedule as much as possible but she also understands if I will have to trade or give days away to work around my business. At that time I said alright but did tell her that I am also a mother of two and my hours would have to be pretty set during the week to also accommodate my children, she agreed. Then yesterday I had this long and I mean long talk with the owner he approached me and asked if I would consider being a manager. He also talked about my personality, patience....(what patience) oh and my years of management experience. I did explain to him that although I am happy to be working here I did apply as a part time person. That my heart and my dreams are to have my own business and to do whatever to be successful with that. I also told him that I spent many a years in the management position and at this time I cannot see myself being able to accommodate all the hours that are required for a management position. He said that he respected that I was so devoted to making my business work and that I was looking for future not the present. That scared me a  little because I could really use that extra income right now but you know what I am tired of job jumping. I found my nitch and I have to stick through it. He then told me the regional is looking to retire and although I have been with them for a few weeks my name is the one she brought up when discussing a replacement. I was shocked but flattered. I told him I would give it some thought but at this time I was happy with the position I currently hold in his company.

Other than that I am trying to get things organized so when I do get some extra money I can get to work. Things left to do: re tile the kitchen floor, hallway floor and the floor by the doorway, paint my room, paint the bathroom and get the shower re-tiled, paint the kids room, repaint the kitchen and organize the basement. I would love to change the carpet in the living room also but I have to remember I am a renter not an owner. I do however have to put the Cindy touch on this place or I will not feel like it is home. So that is about all that is new right now I hope you all are doing fantastic and I cant wait to get some chilling time to talk with all of you. Take care!

Okay guys here it is a quick shout to let you know that I am still alive. I have not posted in forever because I have been so busy I cannot even think straight. I did accomplish a lot though. Got the painting done now that does not sound like much but wait. I painted the outside porch railings, floor and all, outside window frames some were very very high, living room is painted, dining room is painted, kitchen is painted, my sisters windows outside are painted her door frame is painted, my huns moms friends house is painted, now there is also the peaks which are wrapped with aluminum, ceiling fan blades changed, light fixtures changed, thermostat changed, all boxes are empty and everything is put away. Oh and I also got a part time job now too. SO I have been real busy lately. Things I need to still do paint the bedroom, bathroom ,  and the front and back hallway, oh and redo the tile floor in the kitchen and by the door, and re tile the shower. You see when I moved in here I saw that a lot of stuff was just not right. I have to be happy in my house to feel a little better about paying a whole lot in rent. SO I have to make this home. Not to mention I kind of said I would do Christmas this year because my sis and Mav are putting the house on the market. There is no telling where they will be at that time. SO I have a lot of stuff left to do. Plus I am still playing baseball, doing parties and working part time. SO that is why my blog has not been updated in a long while. I am actually typing now while I am on the phone with a customer. It seems my phone never ever stops ringing but as long as news of more parties or helping someone then I am not complaining at all.

SO I have given you guys an update I hope all of you are doing great! I will really try to update again soon but for now I am spent and I have to go study for a test so I will talk to you all later! SMOOOCHES!!!!!

Hi Guys I am going to give you a quick update. I have moved I am at the new house. I wish things could have went a little more smoothly though. I still do not have my internet and I am forced right now to use dial up and lets just say that is not going to well. I called them yesterday and told them they need to resolve my issue or I will be resolving them...totally phone internet all that! They did not like that and insured they were doing all they could to help me out. Oh mind you the guy upstairs has my internet provider so not available in this area.....WHATEVER!!!! So to say teh least I am not on the computer too much, which I guess may be a good thing because everything is getting done. EXCEPT MY BUSINESSS! Boy oh boy that is going to crap right now without my internet. I did sign on the other day and after waiting FOREVER for the computer to catch up I saw something that just about made me loose it. Without having internet for awhile I had to resort to calling in some stuff to Passion parties and place the order over the phone. OKAY I can deal with that right? Well after going to review my bank statement I was unpresently surprised that they not only placed the order but they charged me twice. YUP twice, which caused me to be overdrawn big time. So now the moving truck bounced and several other things bounced as well. I was at -$226.00 WHAT!!!!!! So now I am trying very hard not to go completely wacko as daily I am getting charged more and more fees. I went to the bank and filed a complaint and now I am sitting here waiting for them to return my money. Mind you they emptied out my savings as well. Nice huh?They are telling me 3-5 business days. Now I am hot because they have taken every dime I have because I try not to carry cash. This means no gas, food, cigarrettes NOTHING!!!!!!!Okay I have to get off of that for awhile.

So I had my first baseball game last night and today I am hurt both physically and emotionally. I was on second base headed to third and I hit second and um wait allow me to back up. It rained yesterday the field was muddy and the bases were slippery as hell. We were warned before hand about how slippery it was out there. Oh and I do not have cletes so okay back to my story. I hit second going to third and I did a headed yup I fell splat. I was full of mudd and I landed on my ankle which now is many different colors. I wanted to make it to third so I tried to get up quickly and then I tried to run. I guess from what I hear my face was priceless...everyone knew I was hurt. I got one step away from third and the asshole behind me hit me with his glove which meant I was out! This all happened in the 4th inning so I had to keep playing with the pain in my leg, arm and back oh and covered in mud...great huh? We won 10-0 so I guess it was worth it. I have to learn to hit the ball , drop the bat and run...instead of hitting the ball throwing the bat and running. The ump said he was going to have me tested for steroids because I was heavy handed and had quite a throw. I think he was trying to make me laugh a little more about something other than myself. I have a game on Thursday at 7:30...one day of healing wow I hope I can heal by then for more torture!

So that is my update I am going to sign off now before this dial up crap boots me again! I hate it I hate it I hate it!!!!!!! I hope all is well with you all I would go around and check but this is taking too damn long.

Okay here is another long awaited post. I have been running around like a chicken without a head. Craziness. I had several parties this week I also had the one that was in Dubuque Iowa bot oh boy was that a drive. I also bought a new domain for my shopping cart. I did that for all of you guys and  all the other customers. The old one was so damn long and not that anyone is stupid a lot of people misspelled it and could not get there. SO I made it easier now aren't you all happy? Here it is go take a look www.passionbycindy.com. Go take a look go shopping book a party whatever just go ahead and take a look!

So as for the parties they were I guess okay! I was a little disappointed. I was looking to make a lot and I ended up making a little grrrrrrr! I had a good time at two of them but one boy oh boy I could not wait to get out of there. I also have officially signed another girl. YEAH!!!!! Her name is Sarah and i know she will do a great job. I am going to be working real hard with my team after the move. Meetings, conference calls all that! We need to get busy and get those parties scheduled and done. That is my job to insure that so I am going to start alla pronto.

Also it is 3 days until I move. I am so excited but I am so not feeling like doing it. I have reserved a 27 foot truck diesel stick shift monster. I should be able to get EVERYTHING in that truck one shot and I am gone...so I hope. I do however have to make sure I am at the location when we leave this time. The last time my hun got a little lazy and decided to leave a bunch of my stuff behind instead of putting it on the truck. I WAS pissed so first time shame on him this time would be shame on me so I am going to handle that. I know he will be a grumpy mess on that day because he hates moving I think more than I do. Either that or he hates the whole you have to get something done TODAY not tomorrow not next week TODAY! I have a few friends hopefully my bro in law MAV, maybe my sis Meka and a couple friends, my hun a couple of his friends as well as long as I provide some beer and food. We will see who shows up though. In the past I had so many people that said they would help and they turned into excuses why they couldn't I hate that.... I really do! Either way it goes I have to be out so I guess i will have to deal with what ever comes my way.  Wish me luck I will need it. SO I guess I should once again get busy I would like to finish everything because I have another party tomorrow and then I have Tuesday and then it must be done oh and I have my kids full time now also. Kids camp is over and they are going to NOT get in my way I am going to put them to work if they do LOL! Actually I am putting them to work anyways. SO I hope you all are having a great weekend. Ia m not sure when I will be updating you all again as I will be very busy now. Also after the move there is no telling when my Internet will be back on I might have to use the dreaded dial up GOD HELP ME!!!! Talk to you guys later, hopefully at a new house YEAH!!!!! I dont sound excited do I?

This is going to be a short post....I'm sorry I am DOG tired! I just wanted to update you all. Remember me telling you all about my consultants I am waiting to recruit? Well I am still waiting. I do have the filled out applications and now I have to wait for there call on the go ahead. I wish I could say patiently but I want to get this done. At the end of this month the sale is over, done complete. WAH!!!!!! So not only do I want the new recruits but I want them to start out at the best possible percentage. Is that wrong of me? Today I spent the day getting more things ready for the big move. Oh and remember me saying that I believe my landlord may very well be eavesdropping on me? Well the other day I told my sister that there was a running computer in a closet in the basement. I thought it was weird enough to talk to my sis about it but I did not go turn the monitor on to see what it was. SO yesterday before my party I say to my hun there is a running computer downstairs and tomorrow when they leave I am going to turn it on and see what they are doing. SO I leave for my party with that being said. I get home with a different smell in the air. When I talk to my hun he says when you left they left when they returned they started pounding. GUESS WHAT!!!!! The put in a locked door are you kidding me?  Kawinky dink I think not! I want out bad, this bitch is doing something and it gives me the willies. When you cannot feel comfortable where you lay your head something is wrong real wrong. My hun thinks I am being psycho but come on now how many clues do you need before you put 2 and 2 together and come up with a 4?

So I guess that is what I have been up to inspector gadget I guess! Tomorrow I have a party the next day I am headed to Iowa for a party and then on Sunday I am off and Monday I have another one. After that the move begins I can hardly wait! That may sound sarcastic and maybe some is I hate moving but I am not sure I have ever been so ready to get out of a place. I also have to go by sis tomorrow I bought a new domain name for my online shopping cart, she has some stuff to do with it and then I am set. In the meantime you guys can still use that red heart up there. If you have seen something you have liked and not purchased it yet you probably should. We have new catalogs coming again which means more discontinued items. SO good shopping you and the one in your life will be happy you did. If you are alone, you will be happy as well. I am offering my personal guarantee of that. Talk to you all later good night!